LIFE IS GOOD. JESUS IS EVEN BETTER.

May 29, '08 1:51 PM
for everyone

hello everyone. you guys already know who i am. i write or blog today in hopes of just writing out what is in my heart. today i am job hunting. i am posting my resume online for federal jobs and even jobs that i don't even know. whew. just posting your resume and portfolio online is a hassle. you see, i am currently being processed for getting my degree at old dominion university in biology.

while i was doing this i sensed a great deal of sadness and grief in my heart. though i believe i will get my degree at the end of next month, i still feel as if i don't belong in the world as far having a career. it's like putting a circle peg in a square hole. i want to...but my heart says no. i wonder how God will provide for me...hehe. i ask that question all the time and my heart cries out to Him.

i really don't know how far God will take me...to be honest im scared. im really scared. its like when Abraham was asked to leave his hometown and go towards the land God has promised to him and his descendants. i am scared of reaching my potential. ive only seen bits and pieces of it, but i can't imagine how God will use me.

knowing God all these years has changed me. i don't even know the person that i am now. im totally different from how i used to be. i thank and praise Him for always protecting me and my family...and His guiding hand. i thank Him for His patience, but most importantly i thank Him for the love that was given to me unconditionally...even if i didn't deserve it. His love is what drives me to do my best for Him. i know im not perfect, but i strive to be more like Him.

so here i am in tears while im writing this. i don't know where to go from here. i write to you brothers and sisters in hopes that ive touched a place in your heart where God wants you to be. God wants the very best in your life! He knows the desires of your heart even before you ask Him and He knows WHY he created you. your very purpose lies in Him. may you be blessed and never forget your first love...He is our Lord Jesus Christ.

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erniedevega wrote on May 31, edited on Jun 2

How did the disciples feel as they distributed the fish and the loaves that continued to multiply? A sense of awe I guess? They probably kept passing out the food and acted cool about it. They had to appear unsurprised like it was another day in the office! "Oh, this is nothing compared to what He did last week right John?" says Bartholemew. But in reality, they were always surprised and amazed at everything Jesus did.
The winds started to blow harder than ever. The boat was being tossed around like a toy. Jesus was somewhere in the boat but nowhere to be seen. A strong gale was upon them. Andrew elbows Peter and says, "Don't you think we should wake Him up, right about now!!! The water was coming in the boat fast! The disciples wanted to look calm and collected however they were getting frantic and more scared by the minute. "What if we all drown and Jesus drowns even before He knew what hit Him?" says Thomas. What they didn't know that it was just a quiz that Jesus prepared in order to teach an important lesson. Life's lessons like that strong gale are God's reality quizzes. They were going to fail the quiz in a few moments. No one thought of saying, "Hey not to worry...the Master is here with us! No harm will come to us because He's in control!"
As leaders we look calm and collected teaching, preaching, ministering to our spiritually young students. We have to appear like its no sweat at all, right? When we pass the bread basket and others are amazed at His power to mltiply and provide, we just love it when we see their faces! "You're healed! says the young Pastor!" "See how great God is!" says the Young Adults Leader to his disciples!" "What did I tell you...with God nothing is impossible!" says the evanglist.
HOW IS IT...WHEN WE THE TEACHERS (servants) BECOME THE STUDENTS AND GOD GIVES US A SURPRISE QUIZ, WE'RE NOT TOO HAPPY ARE WE? WHEN THE WAVES ARE STRONG AND OUR BOAT IS FILLING UP WITH WATER. WE START TO WORRY! WE START TO ASK, "GOD ARE YOU SLEEPING?" Sometimes it feels like He is. But we know the truth to that! In the end God always delivers and provides without fail! Then we look like fools doubting His power and His sense of great timing!
I think we all need quizzes and tests once in awhile. It's His way to give us an opportunity to make Him happy. Our faith pleases God! Just like when my son Joey was 3, I had him jump in the pool so I could catch him. He hesitated for awhile, I convinced him to jump and not to be afraid. He jump in the pool and I was proud and happy to know that he trusted me. I believe that God is like that. A good father who teaches His children about FAITH. Without these quizzes how are we to please our Heavenly Father?
Will God provide for you Jay? He provides for all the birds...is a bird more important than His child?

joyyulo wrote on Jun 1

I totally agree with what Pastor just said and I just want to encourage you by telling you that God won't leave you nor forsake you and that He will provide everything that your heart desires because He loves you and because you are faithful to Him. God will never put you in a situation where you won't come out victorious. You are doing what your suppose to do and just let God do the rest. Continue to trust in Him and I can assure you that he will make all things possible to you. You are His son and that's enough for you to stay in faith. God bless you and keep you.

In God's Love,

Sis. Joy

jaysamonte wrote on Jun 2

thank you so much for being the fathers/mothers and brothers/sisters in the faith. what i can tell you is God is SOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes i forget that God is ACTUALLY interested about everything in my life. i praise God for these tests. i really continue to fall in love with Him everyday! all praise goes to Him! i love you guys.

regisor wrote on Jun 4

Brother Jay,

I completely understand where you're coming from. I was in the EXACT same situation as you a long time ago. Although I was an art major at ODU and not a biology major, I felt it absolutely impossible to find a job that I could do after graduation. Experience was so important of course, but for me, I doubted myself so much because I began to believe that I could not really live off of art as a career.

I remember being at ODU with my sister researching jobs. We couldn't find anything that I liked or could do. It all felt completely hopeless and I got so frustrated that I actually began crying right in the library. I felt I wasted all my time, that the faith I had in myself was all a lie.

I settled for an ordinary job which had nothing to do with art, and certainly wouldn't lead me anywhere. I was there for seven years. Still, I made the most of my time, and learned a lot at that job. I gained valuable people and supervisory skills, and was able to support myself. Years later, the idea to return to school to do computer animation surfaced and I jumped at it.

Long story short, I'm using all those art skills to this very day and enjoy a job I truly love. The point is, even though I didn't jump to my dream job right away, I don't regret for a minute the good and bad experiences that led me to this point. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. We don't see it immediately, but it becomes apparent eventually.

I see the potential in so many people because I have been there before. I felt the frustrations and the desperation and I can only hope I can spare other people the same burdens even if they don't bother to listen. I pray you find your own way and that you let nothing stop you.

Brother Jay, you've helped me at a very dark time and I'm so glad that I can at least try to do the same for you. I may be unable to cite passages in the Bible for you, but I can offer you what I've learned and how I've dealt with things in my own experiences.

And again, I do believe that this is all coming together for a reason. Could it only be a coincidence that I had the same doubts and feelings at ODU many years ago, eventually came to Life Church to meet you, only later to discover that you would go through the very same experience at ODU as I did, and can learn from my mistakes?

Anyway, I really hope this helps. I really want to see you through this. I feel I owe you that after all the support you've given me.

God bless,
Reg

hectorcruz wrote on Jun 6, edited on Jun 6

This Sunday, I'll be preaching on vision and determination. When you take these two things and wrap it around your faith, hopelessness and doubt begin to fade. It's a message for all those who are sure God is leading them, but aren't quite sure where or how.
Until then, here's a passage that I read today in my devotion that I want to share w/you:

2 Corinthians 4:7-9 (NKJV)
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.
We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed-

Reggie, thanks for sharing your testimony. I'm in the midst of a career change myself and can identify with the whole job search frustration. Glad to see that you didn't let the vision die.

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